take my hand

FINLAND

2007-01-11T22:12:00.000-08:00

okokokok i have totally neglected this silly blog of mine . so now i shall update the world on my life.

i went to finland. ..................wait that didnt really sound that good let me do that again

I WENT TO FINLAND!!!!!!!!!!!!-jumps around- ..............thats more like it

okok so i have been begging my dad to allow me to go to finland on my own since forever and finally he let me. so for the last 2 weeks i was in finland with all its snow and glory. yesyes phae and thisbe came along ( actually we are on our way home had to stop over the beijing airport for like SEVEN hours .....phae is asleep and thisbe is next to me doing dont know what on this very VERY s l o w computer)

so the last time i was in finalnd was when i was p5 LOOOOOOOOONG time ago, now finalnd has turned abit freakish the weather is like -3 to like7 degrees in helsinki. the last time i was there it was -40 i mean talking about global warming. then we went to rovaniemi it was all nice and white exept that it was -3 and not -50 like the last time i went. still we had fun. went to turku ( aplace i personally havent been so that was new) then back to helsinki.

lets see the best parts

1) THE WEATHER
omg if singapore weather could be like that 3 months in a year i would be in heaven.

2) SHOPPING!!!
hahaha i tell you the amount of stuff we bought is scary we have now 2 big boxes and one extra luggage filled with shopping.

3) SNOW!!!
i mean jeese who doesnt enjoy that ...whoever you are WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!

okok lets see things i will never forget

1) thisbe's unfortunate loss

so we were in the central train station about to take a train to the next state and some old guy decides to be an ass and steal her bag i mean christ.... so she lost her PASSPORT, her phone........... ahyoh then we had to go report it which brings me to the next thing............

2) THE STUPID POLICE!!!!

i tell you i was sooo pissed at those stupid people i mean god if we were in singapore it would be over in an hour these ppl took 4 days i mean JEESE. so i went mad over the phone sorry lah i couldnt help it they were really fools.

3) the snow

ok i mean who would forget thoughs nice fluffy white guys right.

4) ahyah this list is going to be loooong the 3 above are the majors lah

sighs so yah on my way home now totally cannot wait to see the ppl back home I MISS YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!!! hehe yah soon its back to reality ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh O LEVELS!!!!! i am going to die i tell you...okok nvm i shall think positively yes learn good chee. kk shall go now. byebye see you people in singapore .

love
charlotte

merry xmas

2006-12-25T01:25:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR

to everyone i know hahaha good luck for next year i hope it will all you guys hope it to be

to phae
thank you for being such a gem darl hope you will enjoy finland haha (we are going in like 4 hrs)

to the silly people in australia
haha you clowns know i love you lah so i dont need to dwell on it

to serene and jadey
i hope secondary school will be wonderful for both of you, and good luck for the choir auditions. i love you both yah.

to 4co 2006
I LOVE YOU good luck for the results yup

to choir sec 4s 2006
haha wishing you guys all the best in everything .next year will be great yes. LOVELOVE

TO RACH K AND HUIFANG
HAHA hope next year will be great for both of you , good luck for the o levels study hard yah. JIA YOU.

to jill
we all love you darl, jia you k we will all be waiting for you when it ends muax.

to my eating-together-during-recess people
lovelovelove x 1000000000000000000000000000000000000

k thats all i think hehe

once again merry xmas and have a happy new year + love you people lots

love char

snow

2006-12-07T09:14:00.000-08:00

2006-12-02T08:18:00.000-08:00

i have totally neglected this blog havent i.

anyway lets update the world on my situation.

prom is over, haha will never forget the video hahaha maybe its because i cried like an ass. hahaha sighs so it all ended just like that. my entire scgs life. lol. seriously i dont think i will ever find a better place in the world. sighs ahwell. i suppose i cried enough liaos, if i cry anymore i think i would be labelled as over-emotional if i am not already. so yes time to move on.

i am damn scared my Os went come back with terrible marks. crap lah.... i just want to get that silly mark so i can go and life can carry on without me panicking and dreading and blablabla. haiyah why ah always like that one. OH talking about marks. okok veryvery super out of date topic but hey its always a reason to celebrate. congrats to the two little dearys for getting back to sc sec. bravo. i am sooo happy for both of you. hehe at least now i know where to find both of you when i come back to singapore for visits right. dont need to search the entire singapore. hehehe so -clappps- hehe.

sososo i am of to australia for a diving holiday with my family and phae next sunday. hehe fun. me phae and mei graduated from the diving thing hahaha yay us. haha my sister ah reallly lah dont know what to do with that girl. first she said she wanted to taste dog food then she said she wanted to be a starfish then she said ahyah she says alot of non sensical things which i simply cannot understand. as phae says " hen you were born special" hahaha yup she is special all right.

okok this blog long enough right yes it is. i miss sc and 4co and the teachers sooooooooo super much. and i suppose i always will. but hey

" Now is not the end it is not even the beginning of the end but it is perhaps the end of the beginning "

Winston Churchill

yah haha kk bye now

love
char

freedom

2006-11-17T02:31:00.000-08:00

HELLOOOOOOOO ok i totally neglected the countdown so lets do it like really fast now

14

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10

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1

ZERO

hahahahahahahahahahahha

FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMM

omg fun ok lets see it was ok lah the silly o levels i hope i do well but right now hahahaah i am free to go shopping again and tralalalalalaing again and free to be bored of NOT DOING ANYTHING

hahaha the last time i felt this was after psle which was WAY long time ago hahahahaha okok lets see shopping tml with phae. i found the sweetest thing for her -coughs- hahahahaha if you are reading this phae that was just to hint. yah

okok i shall go back to doing nothing byebye

charlotte

2006-11-01T07:06:00.000-08:00

countdown 16

2006-10-31T00:26:00.000-08:00

why serene decided to be nuts and post on MY blog i will never know but ahwell i cant be bothered to delete it ..........

lets start a freedom count down ...sooo the no of days to the end of MY o levels is

16

2006-10-29T01:58:00.000-08:00

HELLO. IM SERENE. char has a weird blog name. whee. hehe ok shes gonna kill me haha YAYE. pfft ok bye.

my fav song ( at the moment)

2006-10-24T23:04:00.000-07:00

YOUR HEART WILL LEAD YOU HOME by kenny logins

Sunny days and starry nights
lazy afternoons
You're counting castles in the clouds
and humming little tunes.
But somehow right before your eyes
the summer fades away,
Everything is different and
everything has changed

If you feel you lost
And on your own
And far from home
You're never alone you know
Just think of your friends
The ones who care
They all will be waiting there
With love to share
And your heart will lead you home

Funny how a photograph
Can take you back in time
To places and embraces
that you thought you left behind
Trying to remind you
that you're not the only one
but no-one is an island
when all is said and done

If you feel you lost
And on your own
And far from home
You're never alone you know
Just think of your friends
The ones who care
They all will be waiting there
With love to share
And your heart will lead you home

there'll come a day when you're losing your way
And you won't know where you belong
They say that home is where the heart is
So follow your heart and know that you can't go wrong.

If you feel you lost
And on your own
And far from home
You're never alone you know
Just think of your friends
The ones who care
They all will be waiting there
With love to share
And your heart will lead you ...

If you feel you lost
And on your own
And far from home
You're never alone you know
Just think of your friends
The ones who care
They all will be waiting there
With love to share
And your heart will lead you ...
where you belong ...
I know your heart will lead you home.

this song came from the tigger movie haha its temporarily my fav song -grins- totally embodies every comforting thought someone can think of when you miss your home, a feeling i will soon be know.

wind beneath my wings

2006-10-20T23:11:00.000-07:00

it must have been cold there in my shadow
to never have sunlight on your face
you were content to let me shine
thats your way
you always walked a step behind

so i was the one with all the glory
and you were the one with all the strength
a beautiful face without a name (for so long)
a beautiful smile to hide the pain

did you ever know that you're my hero
and everything i would like to be
i could fly higher then an eagle
cause you were the wind beneath my wings

It might have appeared to go unnoticed
But I've got it all here in my heart
I want you to know, I know the truth (of course I know it)
I would be nothing without you

did you ever know that you're my hero
and everything i would like to be
i could fly higher then an eagle
cause you were the wind beneath my wings

fly, fly, fly away
you let me fly so high
fly, fly so high against the sky
so high i almost touch the sky

thank you
thank you
thank god for you
the wind beneath my wings

thank you thank you thank you

2006-10-18T07:14:00.000-07:00

i totally love my dad now

LAST DAY

2006-10-14T07:15:00.000-07:00

yesterday was well my last official day in sc, i cannot believe its over. just to let the world know i adore my school. i do, and i am seriously grateful that i got in. i am not ready to leave yet, and i really dont want to say goodbye. not yet.

but every chapter has an ending, so this chapter has begun its end.

to 4co, jill, shaan, stef, huifang, rach k, ........( if your name wasnt mentioned it doesnt make you any less important to me) i want all you guys to know how much i treasure you wonderful people, without you guys my life wont be complete. And i will never forget you, never never never. i swear to that, you have given something that no amount of money can buy. your friendship and i will never throw it away, ever.

thanks so much to the teachers who never gave up on me, to the choir which made my 4 yrs so wonderful, to my classes 1pr (2003) 2pr (2004) 3 and 4 co (2005 and 2006) for always being there for me and to my friends who were always there to pick me up when i fell. i am writing as if i am recieving a emmy lah hahaha. but yah no amt of thanks and gifts can show how grateful i am to all you guys.

i love you all soooo much, some of you i may never meet again and you guys may forget me but i promise that i will never forget any of you.

( 4co study hard yes, dont any of you dare give up, last lap girls we can make run through that finish line together and prove the world wrong)

good luck in whatever you guys do, i am sure you will end up brilliantly.

hugs and kisses and thanks
charlotte goh

CANT WAIT TILL IT ENDS

2006-10-04T07:23:00.000-07:00

ok i have written a normal blog for quite some time

ok lets evaluate my situation. Since sec 1 i have been reminded about something that would come my way, an inescapable fact of life. the 0 levels. for 4 years i was reminded everyday. lets see now its about 4 weeks to the o levels to that sickening day that i have to sit down in our school's hall under the dustfilled fans and write on a few sick pieces of paper. 4 WEEKS, omg i am screwed.

cramming is something i dont do well, i am studying 10hrs a day , my brain feels as if its going to fall out, my heart feels as if it may just leap out of my system and leave me there to die, my entire system feels like its going to crash anytime. i feel terrible, truely. i dont know how long i can go on like this. its like waking up in the morning an still feeling tired. then sitting down on the desk and feel like tearing up the books in front of you. MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY DRAINED. i dont how much longer i wil last.

i want it to end sooo much, i want it all to finish. AND I WANT IT TO BE DONE WELL. but how can i do this well if i feel like this now, how? i am not the type to give up, so here i am fighting through slogging day by day. counting down the days to freedom. i hate being like this but its only for this while ( i tell myself everyday) then its merdeka.

i cant wait till it ends............

light a candle

2006-10-04T03:32:00.000-07:00

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MAGIC

2006-10-01T05:44:00.001-07:00

i never took life to be what was in front of me. I always thought there was always something else, something unseen. When i was younger i thought this something was magic. The magic you see in Cinderella and Sleeping Beauty. With fairies and witches. With knights in shining armour on beautiful white stallions. that type of magic.

i always felt that something was around me guiding me through things. Something made sure i didnt fall into that hole i saw in my garden this morning. Something that wasnt me nor was it anything i could touch or hold in my hand. When i was three or four i believed that it was magic. The magic you see wands produce, or the type that comes out of magic lamps of gold. the type with fairy godmothers who changed rags to silk, or genies that granted 3 wishes. that type of magic.

I always felt that there was something that pushed me up when i felt that it was hopeless to try again. Something that told me everything was going to be ok. Something that never left me nomatter how far from home i would be. when I was five or six, i thought it was magic. the type of magic that allows you to fly, or the type that lets you see through walls. the type that lets you mind read or the type that shows you the future. That type of magic.

i always feel that something is always there, whether its guiding me through the day or keeping me going. it was something that did it. I always thought it was something out of storybooks something that alot of people dont believe in, something called magic.

but what is magic?

1) magic is the love a father gives a daughter that urges him to want to protect her as long as he lives.

(to that daughter her father is her white knight and his love is better then any armour.)

2) magic is the love a friend give another that enables you to grant your own wishes as you will know she would always be there.

( to that person her friend is her magic wand, with her around anything seems as easy as flicking a magic wand)

3) magic is the love you feel for another, that allows you to hold her hand and ensure her that everything will be wonderful in the end. the love that makes her feel like she could fly.

(to that person you are her wings, you are her eyes that allow her to see through those walls blocking her way.)

what is magic?

it is love and its there for you always.

life and me

2006-09-26T08:09:00.000-07:00

i know people who said life is hell, they wanted life to stop, for one of them life did. i am always saying there are wrong that life isnt as bad as it seems. i was so sure i was right, so sure they were wrong. I stand today, an indivisual with a future ahead of her. Dreams and goals she wants to achieve. will it ever happen is another story.

whats going to happen in the future? thats a question that only time can answer. to me thats what makes life terrifying, the inability to predict whats to come. its like standing and waiting for a lion to pounce. thrilling to some, to others fearful. to me inescapable. when someone says life is hell, what do they mean. is it that life doesnt give them what they ask for? is it that life keeps putting them down? or is it that life is simply what is it, unpredictable? no one can prepare for whats to come , not fully at least. you will never know what to espect around the next corner.

why do people want to die? only those people know or do they? do they know they are giving away something that they cant take back? do they know that they are wishing for others to suffer? do they know that help maybe just around that corner, that someone might be already reaching out a hand and all they need to do it to reach out and take that hand? do they know?
somehow i dont think so.

life is full of ups and downs its true that we may suffer more then we should. But thats no reason to want to stop living and give up. you have to be alive to succeed. if life is terrible now, just close your eyes and count to ten. open them and go on living. go on fighting. Because one day you will be free , you will bask in the glory of sunshine. if you find that you are falling just look around you. there are always people ready to give a hand, to pull you back up.the road is long and hard, you may get a few cuts and burns along the way. but a friend is always a good nurse for such emergencies. She will be the one to pull you back to your feet and hold you hand and assure you that everything is going to be ok.

dont give up, look in that mirror and make sure you love that person you see staring back. live, dont want to die. because you are so much stronger then that. smile because you have friends who love you, smile because you love them right back and live because you are worth it.

Forbidden city

2006-09-25T07:24:00.000-07:00

Nobody knows me
Nothing before the day that i came
Like others who lived and prayed for the same
They don't even know my family name
Nobody knows, nobody knows

Nobody sees me
Blessed me with luck the rules of their art
I've been all they've hoped
Each day from the start
But nobody sees the dreams of my heart
Nobody knows, nobody knows.

This is my only chance
love open my heart
Years of broken dreams all in the past
This is my only chance
Love make me apart
of someone who loves me

they painted my face
they've chosen my past
they moulded my pride in the role that they cast
but inside theres a place a place that nobody knows

this is my only chance
loce open my heart
years of broken dreams all in the past
this is my only chance
love make me apart
of someone who loves me
and knows
and tells me he loves me

at last.....................

2006-09-24T01:42:00.000-07:00

Courage- Your inner power is Courage! You love being a complete dare devil. Bungee jumping, sky diving, you name it, you just love the adrenalin rush you get. You crave the freedom you feel when you go about doing anything thats simply just wild and wacky. Youre the one who talks all your friends into your latest crazy idea, and the one who jokes around with them while youre waiting for your immunisation needle to get their minds off it. You known for being outgoing, and you always stand up for your friends if someone is trying to hurt them, physically, verbally, mentally, it doesnt matter to you. But NO ONE messes with your buddies. You are very loyal and optimistic, and can cheer anyone up with your (not always children friendly) jokes. You constantly need new challenges in life, as you get bored extremely easily. Teachers may find you frustrating because you probably muck around in class, but everyone else finds you humorous and admire your daringness and self confidence. You love attention, and parties are right up your ally. You go girl! You cant wait to get out in the world, and enjoy yourself to the max. So get going! Boy/Girl who will sweep you off your feet: The fiery, happy go lucky guy/girl. Someone who is always up for a challenge, and is the one whos arm in arm with you when you announce your next crazy endeavour, right along beside you in convincing all your friends. Your stone: Bloodstone Your power: Valour. Your morals and bravery are the things that will get you everywhere in life. In the world needed a warrior to protect, theyd turn to you. Your element: Fire A quote that applies to you: "Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all."

JUST SO YOU KNOW

2006-09-22T22:53:00.000-07:00

i dont know if anyone has done this before ..... or if anyone will do it again. but i find it necessary to sort this out with the world.

those who dont me, i would like to enlighten that i am from the last class. the single science class. i am here because i made a mistake. a mistake i regretted. i didnt work hard. lets define not working hard or in one word laziness. lets define that. to be lazy is not the same as being stupid.....to be lazy is to have the ability yet not the will power to do a certain thing...such as studying. BUT lets highlight laziness CANNOT be confused with STUPIDITY. laziness CANNOT be confused with INSENSITIVITY.

lets enlighten the world that people from my class are wonderful. SURE, we have flaws but doesnt everyone. we have great altheletes, leaders, artists, singers, actresses....... in this small class of 18. we are as good as any other class. WE HAVE HEARTS.

throughout these two years, we have had people insulting us, humiliating us, trying any way to show us " what we really are". now i would like to tell these insensitive brutes a little something. god you guys are lame. you could be from a better class, or you could teach a better class, but hey what makes you as a person any better then us. everytime you critisize us, we took it. we stand there and bloody take it. finally when we succeed you just make our victory twice as sweet, twice as wonderful.

there was someone i shall be civil and save who it is. who said that people from my class wont succeed. you should be damned. there are people in my class who might one day save your life, there are future doctors, lawers, computer experts, singers....in this class in which you show so much disdain. finally if anyone of us see you in the future, we wont hasitate to come say hi. one day if you need a doctor you might have one of us saying " hi oh i know you hmmf i see you need a CO girl to save you now huh" . on that day, i hope you remember what you said about us, on that day i hope you would finally learn something useful.

we proved so many of you wrong, we won competitions....we fought our way through. now we will graduate proud, we will work hard and we will shine. oh i would personally like to thank you for at least one thing. because YOU insulted us, because YOU preyed upon us like a lion killing a hare.....YOU who tested our hearts time after time have made us twice as strong as you...you have made us twice better...twice smarter...and two times more willing to win. thanks alot.

all those in the last class from sec 1 to sec 4, all these people are brilliant. they will one day all make a diffirence in this world and you will see them do it.

i come from 4 COURAGE. do you know what courage is....its the will to go on no matter how many people try to put you down. MY CLASS has shown this every step of the way. and for that we deserve respect, we have done nothing wrong to you, we have cheered you on when you deserved it. so now its time for you to learn i little something, its time for you to learn what it is to have courage its time for you to open your eyes and look in the mirror. in so many ways you are just like us, but in so many ways we are sooo much better then you.

i got into the last class because of a mistake, but i swear now that thank my stars i made that mistake. I AM PROUD OF MY CLASS EVERY SINGLE PERSON IN IT. and dont you dare mess with us, cause well you are so going to loose.

FRIENDS

2006-09-20T09:06:00.000-07:00

if there is one thing in my life that i am seriously, undoubtly proud of it i will be my friends. haha :) lets mention one shall we

1) i met her in sec 1, before that i only knew her name existed.

so here i was in sec 1, it was the 2nd semester and ermmm lets see oh yah we had to change partners. i didnt come to school for the switch so i got a call from Sylvia saw who was my partner for the first semester, saying that i got this girl as a partner. i remember the first thing i said was " OH CRAP" hahahah she was super quiet back then, and i thought that i would just die. me and her never talked and never would have. now that i think about it i am sooo thankful we switched to be partners.
sosososo the term went on, iand i am quite sure i pissed her off TONS of times haha. but we got used to each other and well we became friends.
in sec 2 we were lab partners, well until we changed places in term 3. so we chatted again and all was cool. me and her well, we hanged around totally diff people. so our groups of friends were diff and soon we drifted haha not surprised i must say. still she had a great sense of humour.
sec 3 haha i was with one group of people, the you could say " cared about ego" people and she was with the class clowns. haha she never failed to make people laugh. she would come late for school and drive the teachers up the walls. but she didnt care.
we "reunited" then "parted" hahah it was like a cycle if you get what i mean. hmmm i must tell you that she changed since sec 1. hahaha
now at sec 4 , no one would have guessed she was once a quiet person. hahahahah she matured alot, found a goal in her life and works for it. i admire this friend of mine haha for her self responsibility ( its not the abding by the rules responsiblity more of like I GOT MY PRIORITIES STARIGHT SO DONT MESS WITH ME kind of responsibility) , for her ability to be a wonderful friend.
we might go our seperate ways , not speak to each other for eons but i will never forget her.....

for one simple reason she is none other then VALERIE

IN THE SPIRIT OF BEING RANDOM

2006-09-11T09:18:00.000-07:00

ok i copied this from miss serene...not the WHOLE loooong quiz but some questions ( unlike some people me not that bored) ok....-grins-

Full Name:Charlotte Goh Hui Huang
Nickname(s):Char, Lotti, the joining of the first two
Where you named after anyone?: My ass of a mother
Sex:female obviously
hetro, homo, or Bi?:straight
Ethnical Background/Skin Color: Mixed of chinese and english, therefore i dont know what colour i am
Eyes:brown
Hair: lighter brown then normal i suppose
Birthday:20th December 1990
Western Zodiac Sign:Saggitarius
Chinese Zodiac Sign:horse
What do you want to work as in the future?: lawer or if that doesnt work out singer
Where did/do you attend college or where do you want to attend?: Taylors college (sydney)
What are your hobbies?:SINGING, talking, travelling ...its a long list
Are you a good listener?:hmmmm not exactly for me to say is it
Do you think looks are important?: not really, but the person cant be tooooo ugly hahaha jking

Poem: i carry your heart with me by e. e. cummings
Quote: know that you are loved
Subject In School:english, geog (most of the time)
Teacher: mrs cheong (laushi), miss lee w h, mrs lim s j, mrs wang y g and mrs a goh
Season:winter.....when it isnt bloody 38 degrees outside
Time Of Day: dusk
Flower: rose , lilly

Daydreamer?:yes
Class Clown?:nope
Optimist?:of course
Pessimist?:no ....i just like to face reality

Do you believe in love at first sight?:yes
Have you ever been in love?:yes
If so, with who?:-beep-

friends .......
Craziest: hmmm lets see VALERIE
Loudest:hmmm not sure really
Quietest: haha sam (4pr)
Smartest:LEE LI SHAN
Happiest: hmmmmm lishan
Most Depressed: hmmmmmm lets see there is a list
Most Clueless: PHAE hahaha jking
Most Talented: phae
Best All-Around:phae
Best Friends:phae and liz
Which friend have you had the longest?: liz
Which 5 people do you trust and are open with the most?: liz phae huifang ermmm serene i suppose and valerie

If you hadn't been doing this survey, what would you have been doing?: hmmmm sinking into insanity haha

ok thats it hahaha yah i cut alot out didnt i serene hahahah tralala tml is chem and i am going to die but ahwell it the story of my life hahahahha today's papers were quite ok better then i thought haha math wasnt toooo bad :) yup i shall go now its like late...

muax love you all
charlotte

leaving on a jet plane

2006-09-07T07:37:00.000-07:00

time, aint it a strange thing. Sometimes a minute seems like forever, other times a decade feels like a day. I am not going to lie to myself and say that everything about these 10 years have been bliss. My 10 years in a school surrounded by people i love, i have complained, wished the time would pass faster, yearned for the day i would step out of the gates and would never have to come back.
day by day passed, and now i stand nearer that gate. Now i realise i can never turn back, never again go through the life i am so used to....be with the people i cherish now as friends, and that whatever lay outside those gates would be so different. A world far away from everything i know and love.
each day passes and i walk closer and closer to the exit. i feel fear and excitment all at once. i crave freedom with all my heart. But if only i could bring those i love with me. Life is not always fair, i have told this to many. I suppose i will live, one day at a time, one small step after another. i want to go, i do. but i know that once i am there i would be counting down to the day i come home.
i will never walk through those gates again....not the same way. Never again will i know what tml will bring. Never again will i be the same. i will leave people behind, well at least for a little while. I know i will always carry them memories, something no one can take away from me. And when i come home, yes, i would have changed...a little, but not very much. I will still be me, purely Charlotte.
and at least that i am extremely sure.

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY

2006-08-31T02:28:00.000-07:00

teachers such funny people dont you think......... well today was my last teachers' day in scgs. Best one ever!!!!!! ok hmmm the "kungfu fighting" aces day was sooo super cute. so we were judgeing and yes it was fun..... my sister looked really blur....you see familiar faces laughing at how they are embaressing themselves but continue anyway just for the fun.
so we went around giving gifts to our beloved teachers......me and phae bought wooden blocks with letters on them ( eg L for lim) yah and painted them the cutest colours and we wrote " thanks for laying the building blocks of our lives" yah haha.
the concert begun, lets see my fav performances were the 2 pr dances ( lets commend thisbe's, phae's younger sis, dancing.....it was GOOD, edith was going " my hair stand!") and of course the choir sec 3s. haha ( me kelly suyin andrea and lishan screamed our voices hoarse..... ahyah choir still rox lah....who can deny:) i totally congratulate my wonderful juniors for the wonderful performance) after the performances we had this gameshow for the teachers. miss heng obviously hasnt memorised the rule book...haha neither the less she rox as a principal( i admitt i complain sometimes but who doesnt....nobody i know can beat her lah). then we had this reallllly emo giving of badges to the teachers......we shouted " 4C0 LOVES YOU MRS LIM!!" realllly loudly but i dont think she heard haha no matter she knows we love her:) haha yah.
so teachers day ended for the secondary school and i went over to the primary side to visit the teachers....... never can forget the people over at the primary school. hugged squishy miss lee weihua hahaha i love her lah she is soooo cute. anyway then gave a letter to miss ee said hi and wished many other teachers happy teachers' day...went home.
i was telling phae this morning that next year it will be a totally diff set of teachers and we would never feel like this ever again. its sad but ahwell..........one cannot ask for everything. going to miss the teachers here sooo much and ofcourse the wonderful people....no other school can beat sc none what so ever...........not that i know of at least.
shall sign of now once again
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY DEAREST TEACHERS AND THANKS FOR EVERYTHING THESE MANYMANY YEARS!!!!

love
charlotte

living in reality

2006-08-21T05:49:00.000-07:00

you know i still can remember last the last three years everytime the sec 4s has science practical prelims, how i used to complain about the inconveniance. sheesh tml is my chem prac prelims. god, cant life be any easier.

anyway lets see, i cut my hair its SUPER short now but it will grow back, at least all the dry gross mane-like crap is in some dustbin. hahaha you should have seen Jan's face when she saw my hair, priceless.

Ok i suppose i have repeated this a milllion times, but I LOVE MY CLASS....its super fun. val and jan came up with this wierd lemon tree dance haha its soo cute..lame but cute. so we want to do it during aces day and be uncomformist yah. haha i have totally enjoyed every moment i spend with my silly class...its sooooo much fun.

recieved my testimonial from mrs wang today...OMG I LOVE MRS WANG AND MRS GOH. they are sososososososososo nice.....ok there were a few minor spelling and grammatical mistakes but overall it was sooo sweet. i love them. ahhhh i still miss choir, but it has kind of settled in now. ahwell, i know i told a few people that i wont join the choir in taylors but i dont know its soooo tempting. oh and the university choir. ohhhh but i think i may be to stuck with mounts of law books. sighs ah well...still can sing in the bathroom and irritate phae when we come back from school. hahaha.

okok i should get back to mugging now

muax love all of you lots
charlotte

FAREWELL

2006-08-13T05:11:00.001-07:00

That day finally came, 11th of august. omg i really didnt want it to come so fast. on saturday i woke up and realised that i would never go for another choir practice as a member. That i was put under the catogary of alumni. Friday was great. the farewell was awesome, the room looked wonderful. the familiar faces that i havent seen together for 2 weeks were all there. the sec 3s really did a fab job. THANK YOU SOO MUCH!! dinner was good. then the games came. it was like any choir camp when we ran around the place playing wierd games. omg i was telling myself i would give anything for it to be just a choir camp and not my farewell.
the performances. the sec 1s performance were soooo sweet, i am soo proud of them. the sec 2s put up a really hilarious version of 2829. the sec 3s sang " leaving on a jetplane" i cried couldnt help it. seriously nobody could have more wonderful juniors.
then it came to the speeches, people i didnt expect to cry did. i dont know i think my speech was just wierd but i meant every single word. sighs my entire life in choir i have seen seniors come and go. i never knew how they felt standing there giving their parting speech. now i know, looking at the choir sitting in front of me i just wanted soooo much to be in any other level besides sec 4. i wanted to sit there knowing that next tuesday i still had to come to choir.
we ended the farewell by singing " fields of gold" as a choir one last time. i will never forget those last few minutes. when we sang the last note i realized that it was the last note i would ever sing with the choir....i wanted it to last forever.
all good things come to an end, a new door closes as another one opens. my time in the scgs choir has ended, and my 10 yrs in this school is nearing its close. i will never forget the many wonderful moments i spent together with the choir nor the brilliant people i have met and now proud to call friends. people like zara, sheridine, beverly, huifang, rachel k .... who i owe sooo much to, I LOVE YOU GUYS AND THANK YOU SOOOO VERY MUCH. nothing i can say can tell you how much you mean to me.

once again i bid adieu and know that i will never forget you.

love you always
charlotte

2006-08-06T04:49:00.000-07:00

Enya - Only Time

one of the most beautiful music videos on the planet

congratulations

2006-07-30T06:33:00.000-07:00

CONGRATS DIF FOR GETTING THE BEST CADET AWARD :)

<3
charlotte

its ended

2006-07-28T07:19:00.000-07:00

whoever who knows me should know i adore my cca. even sometimes i complain and groan i still love it. almost everything about it.

today was the last day of choir, i have never cried so much in school all my ten years.

to the sec 3s

you people were my first batch of juniors. i remember your sec 1 performance in 2004. you guys have grown sooo much since then. and you dont know how proud i am of you guys. now all of you can sing soooo wonderfully, i know next year the choir will simply blossom with you guys as sec 4s. to rachel k and huifang ( the two people who had stood next to me for the past hmm 2 -3 yrs haha) choir wouldnt have been so fun without you two. HUGS. anyway love you all and thank you sooo much for making chor the way it is.... wonderful.

to the sec 2s

all i can say is i love you guys! wonderful hyper people. haha you guys made choir sooo much fun..... haha anyway must keep the commitment up okey. muax people.

to the sec 1s

haha you guys have been great, its still your first year and there is a 3 year journey ahead. IT PASSES FASTER THEN YOU THINK!!!! haha thanks sooo much for being such fun. and oh ahah andrea who stood next to me for this year, and had to take my craziness. hahahaha thanks alot k love you.

last but not least to the sec 4s

i really dont know what to say. yah I LOVE YOU GUYS. yah haha from KASHIRI to MAMORU
(excuse my spelling) haha thanks soo much for being there every step of the way. good luck for the O LEVELS haha know you ppl will do well.
they say a pic is worth a thousand words.

thanks you guys sooo much!

you would never know how fast it will end until you are in sec 4 and its your last day.

thanks again and i love you guys soooo much.

charlotte

I ABSOLUTELY LOVE MY CLASS

2006-07-20T05:17:00.000-07:00

why must the last year always be soooo wonderful???????

my class, 4 courage, 18 girls, 18 lives. Who knew.

throughout this year i have seen my class go through the craziest things. the diffirent competitions how we pulled each other through each one. from the bball interclass thing to the recent talentime. i still remember how happy we were when we heard mrs bowness annoucing the level winner for the bball thingy. we beat all the others and we were the smallest and last class. then when we heard we got into the finals for chinese talentime, how we cheered and screamed like crazy fools. We got third in the chinese talentime haha ther wasnt a third prize though, but who gives a shit. We did it and we had fun. i know none of us will ever forget it.

now the fun and games are over and prelims are around the corner. Mrs lim had mentioned that its really easy for a girl from our class to get a 40 mark L1R5, and only 1 girl usually gets the 20. But this year somehow i know its going to be diffirent.

There are many things i regret doing in my life but getting into this wonderful class isnt one of them. I LOVE YOU GUYS SOOO MUCH!!! its the last strech now JIA YOU and prove the world wrong.

i am listening to Bette Miller's Wind Beneath My Wings and tearing like a idiot. lol

Did you ever know that you're my hero
and everything i would like to be
i could fly higher then an eagle
cause you were the wind beneath my wings

fly
fly
fly away
you let me fly soo high
fly
fly
so high against the sky
so high i almost touched the sky
thank you
thank you
thank god for you the wind beneath my wings.

THANK YOU 4CO FOR A WONDERFUL YEAR.

I LOVE 4 COURAGE

2006-07-18T03:28:00.000-07:00

omgomgomg, today was everything one could wish for.

1) e. lim's lesson wasnt that bad cause she barely talked hahahaha

2) laushi gave us her lesson to practice talentime ( and will give it to us again tml) LAUSHI, I SO LOVE YOU!!!

3) WE GOT INTO THE FINALS!!!!!!!!!!!

hahaha i kind of screwed up the first part of the song because i was so damn nervous but after that it was wonderful. then the results were read out, haha when they said 4co. the entire class stoned for a few seconds then after realization started screaming!! -funny- hahahaha omg this is like the first time the entire class came together and worked soooo hard for a performance haha. I LOVE YOU GUYS, THANK YOU FOR ALLLLLL THE EFFORT!

So tml we have the finals, haha ofcourse we are hoping to win but even if we dont i wouldnt mind much. we did our best and we all know that. Laushi, Mrs Lim Sj and Mr Tae said we did well. people even cried lah. WOHOOOOO!!! - happiness-

to my darling class:

thank you soo much and yah we can do it tml hahahaha ok very very very cliche but oh well. good luck all muax

hugs and kisses
charlotte

BLISS

2006-07-08T05:38:00.000-07:00

HELOOOOOOO i m happy. tralalallalalalalala oh well lets see ermmmmm i just had a saliva drying convo with phae's parents. her mom is sooo cute ......tralala anyway yah i need the o levels to be over. i need to have a burning fest hahaha invite the sec 4s over and we can all do a dance around the fire and throw all our books in. -imagines- so fun.

lets see this week went well we had monday off and friday early release.....if only everyweek was like that. chinese talentime is coming together its really not bad you know haha. i just hope i dont die on stage on the day of the performance. haha.

yah shall end short today muax.

charlotte

COUNTDOWN

2006-07-01T21:52:00.000-07:00

sighs ok the june hols ended and the sec 4s have gone back to reality, i just had my chinese orals a few days ago, oh god, i really think i screwed it really badly. listening compre is in a few weeks so its my last chance to save myself from doom.

i was telling phae how i imagined success to be like, i mean if anybody has trouble getting yourself to study i really think imagining this helps. whether you are sec 4 or p6.

1st picture

imagine the day your results come back and you wait impatiently to get your result slip. the teacher calls your name, you walk up to the table. palms sweaty stomach tied up in knots. you sit down the teacher solmnly telling you " sori but you could have done better" (for sec 4) " sori but you almost made it" (for p6) you see your mark, dread and terror seem to drawn you like a wave. tears stream down your face. you have failed to get what you want.

2nd picture

imagine the day your results come back and you wait impatiently to get your result slip. the teacher calls your name, you walk up to the table. palms sweaty stomach ties in knots. you sit down the teacher beams at you then passes you your marks. you look down tears start flowing, you cannot believe it. you walk out of the hall eyes still fixed on your slip still wondering if ths were just a dream. you rub your eyes but the marks dont disappear. you jump for joy. walking down to the canteen you see your friends all beaming and overjoyed. you hug and tears of joy run down your face. you will say something like " OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG AHHH we did it"
you dont care what the world thinks at the moment. you have succeeded in reaching your goals you can now step onto a new platform and take another train down a diff road. one step closer, you look ahead knowing that whatever the future brings you have come this far and now you are ready to go the next mile.

pick your picture keep it in your mind whenever you study. it works for me! haha

good luck ppl jia you k muax

charlotte

quote

2006-06-29T05:22:00.000-07:00

"It burned me in the night,It blistered in my dream;It sickened fresh upon my sightWith every mornings beam" -Emily Dickinson

stupid or not

2006-06-23T21:39:00.000-07:00

accomplished

2006-06-20T02:44:00.000-07:00

I got my results back yesterday FINALLY. haha -jumps around- DISTINCTION DARL! haha ok i shall stop being ego. oh to serene: thank you. haha k.

there we go so i finally am in my course of my choice all i need is to get my goals for the damn o levels and freedom is mine!!!!!! i suppose its a goal i have been reaching for since forever but god will i miss all the people here. -slapps myself- change sub.

so lately i had to go back to school for math remedial ahaha i prefer mrs lim sooooo much better to -cough- ahwell shant risk it. vicky is listening to the wierdest songs oh lord i need a com in a room where i have the ability to lock up and bar you know thats the only way to get peace in this house :)

kk shall end short today muax bb.

charlotte

random

2006-06-14T02:10:00.000-07:00

I AM BACK

2006-06-13T22:39:00.000-07:00

HELLOOOOOO

hahaha omg the holiday in sabah was sooooooo much fun hahaha Sipadan hasnt changed abit anyway lets breeze through the days shall we........

day1

Phae came to my house at 7:30 in the morning since we were leaving the airport at 8. SHE IS FINALLY 16!!!!!!! (envious) HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHAEDRA DARLING!!!!! <3 yah we talked all the way to the airport haha checked in the luggages (the goh family never travel light:)) then headed of to the lounge for breakfast. after we did 15 min (pathetic i know) of SHOPPING:) yah haha went onto the plane talked again we landed in KL about 1 hr after haha then its was SHOPPING again. SWEETS GALORE. phae bought these really cute sweets from the harrods store ........strawberry and cream. haha anyway we had abit of trouble getting to the immigrations hahaha daddy had a really hilarious reason for that but shant risk putting it on this:) yah reached Tawau, Sabah about 2 hours after that. yah took a ride on one the dirtiest busses on earth (damn gross but no choice) haha yah to WHITE RABBIT charlie(people who know me should know where that is. yah so fun we found our rooms and dumped our bags on the floor hahah and ran around to see what was new. after tht it was the usual dinner tv bed.

ohohoh wait we took these really funny videos of ourselves acting up the funniest things hahaha hilarious but private.

day2

yah the morning wasnt wonderful for me since i fought with dad but oh well we always fight without yelling life would totally be boring.

in the afternoon i went diving with henrietta aka my sister. omg the water was wonderful turtles were everywhere me and my sis were like " PATTING ZOOOOO!!!" haha yah we went around stroking the turtles like they were our doggys haha omg they are sooooo cute lah. haha anyway saw a few sharks here and there which were cute too. hahaa yah FUN.

went back and daddy decided phaedra had to try diving. haha phae was like "PRAY FOR ME" "CHARLOTTE IS IT DIFFICULT" haha but the girl was a natural haha she went down 20m on her first dive!!! haha HORRAY FOR PHAE! yah on the way back to the surface we bumbed into a really big turtle haha i went backt o strocking mode. hahaha

day3

k anwyay the day was about the same we went for 3 dives enjoyed ourselves immensely.

day4

we went for a dive in the morning to this pla which uncle david called The Hanging Gardens haha went down 31m aka 100 feet (with phaedra wohoo) saw my first lapaord shark haha it was adorable haha yayness anyway my dad took a few pics of my sister being silly underwater haha funny.

last dive saw a hue school of fishes hahaha estimated like 300 fish in one bulk haha no current water was clear we couldnt ask for more.

went back to tawau port and said goodbye to the crew headed to Kota Kinabalu haha yups.

reached KK at 9-10 yah checked into the shangrila hotel went into our rooms and .....turned on the tele hahahaha.

(shall con't later haha bb muax)

NAILS GALORE

2006-06-07T04:30:00.000-07:00

k well today me and janooi went to Holland Village to do our nails, haha actually we made the appointment like last week with Hua but she decided not to come because her nails were too short so yah she didnt come. so i brought my sis instead yupyup. We ate lunch at Swensons again haha the service this time wasnt to bad haha the last time we went Hua got kinda pissed at a few people who couldnt serve prop, Hua has really good observation skills haha. ahwell so i ate pasta while my sis and janooi ate baked rice (jan's fav, she ate it the last time as well.:) k then we went up to the place where we made the appointment....we were like 1 hr early fun aye hehe. they let us in anyway my sis decided she wanted to save her money for shopping so of she went. We picked our scrubs and stuff haha they served us tea which we in the end didnt drink. The scrub and creams smelt GOOOOOOOD haha janooi had lavender and i had some apricot and almond thingy yah. we took a super long time to pick the colours we wanted for the nail polish. But yah i like my nails !!!!! my fingers are metallic light purple and my toes are dark maroon. janooi had really RED nails haha they looked viscous hahaha. yup haha then after the nails we sent janooi back (she lives a 3 min walk from my place haha) she had to jump over th gate because it wouldnt open for her. hahaha NICE JUMP JANOOI!!! yah hahaha k thats about it. MUAX

charlotte

NEW BLOG

2006-06-06T02:41:00.000-07:00

i must have gone insane. ahwell i was bored so i decided to open a new blog since the old one hasnt been touched for a really long time and looks really screwed so i thought "why not aye?" and here we are charlotte's blog no. 2.

Tml the last day of holiday classes. -jumps around the room- after that i am FREE. well not really since 0'levels are this year so i have to study in between the celebration of having no school. lets see lately the only woman my granfather loved in his life (not my grandmother, i have one screwed family) passed away. omg i only just heard their story, you know the kinda story that starts way way back yah that story. oh man, if you want to hear a true love story this ones a real good one. anyway so she passed away after an illness which lasted about 3 mths, sooo sad i mean the last time i saw her she looked pretty healthy. sighs.

thats for the saddening news,

lately i had this slpover at the white rabbit (the boat) with Zara, Beverly, Suyin and Rachel K. haha Rachel came at like 11pm haha i mean how early is that. Meanwhile as we wated we ate thoughs wonderful scones that the chef made for us, my dad was saying "who cares about looks THE GUY CAN COOK, WELL!" (i have one looney dad), drank some wine( found out zara only likes sweet wines....girl go try desert wine i bet you will love it) , then we walked up to my fav part of the boat on the sundeck and climbed over the railings and sat there. Bevy kept going " i like the sky", haha WE LOVE YOU BEVY! we talked about the craziest things under the sun. haha finally when rach came i walked out to get her in haha we both slipped and somehow or another she cut herself on both feet (poor rachel) she was so scared to dirty the carpet haha she is so cute lah. when the two stuwardesses finished cleaning her poor cut feet we both walked up onto the sundeck and joined the others and tralalalalaed away. so finally we went back down watched movies ate popcorn zara found her paradise on my grandad's massage chair. hahaha silly zaralala. rachel zara and myself slept upstairs in the vip room haha tried to on the tele but couldnt figure out how lol. then we went back to talking. until about 3:30 we went to sleep. being the crazy fools that we are we woke up at 6:40 to see the sunrise. well thats wat we wanted to see but ended up just falling asleep on the sundeck. haha at about 7:30 we went back down to the room and went back to dreamland. woke up again 9:30 haha. yah breakfast was good then we watched Failure 2 Launch zara and rachel fell asleep towards the end. yah ate udon for lunch. YUM. then finally headed back to my house. haha fun

k thats all muax bb

charlotte